Thursday, November 15, 2018

The Journey Isn't Meant For Everyone

I had to learn that no matter how much you love someone or they love you, it doesn't mean that they are meant to be in your life for a lifetime! Some people are seasonal. Even though it hurts to let them go, you realize later on that it was meant to be. You can't grow with everyone. Some people may hinder your growth after a certain season. Sometimes, some people aren't meant to walk each season with you. I've learned this too. Some people are meant to leave for a while and then come back in at a time when you are both ready to grow together. It is funny because I have held on to people a little too tightly which made it harder when I realized I had no other choice but to let go. How do you let go? You pray. At least, that is what I have done. Some situations took me years before I was fully healed. Letting go has been hard. Especially when you have so much in a short span of time.

Next month will make 10 years since my mother's passing. I had to let go of some people prior her to her death, but her death-of course-was the hardest pain to deal with it and the quickest thing that I had to grow up from anymore. It made me realize a: I'm no longer a little girl. b: I lost my first best friend. c: All the things a girl dreams about with their Mom I will never get to do with her (my first pregnancy, her first grandchild, a wedding, etc.) This was something I had to live with for the rest of my life. To say that is an easy feat will be a complete lie. There are really very few things harder than losing your parent. The point I'm trying to make though is that I had to let go. Though a small part of me aches and still wishes that I could see her beautiful face and talk to my Mom, the other part had to realize it was better for her to go and the seasons that came after I had to face alone to grow.

In conclusion, appreciate each season you have with someone. Even if they leave, remember to cherish the good times and learn not to be bitter when there time in your life or in their life is over.

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