Wednesday, December 5, 2018

Rejection

Luke 24: “Truly I tell you,” he continued, “no prophet is accepted in his hometown."

I have been rejected by people for as long as I could remember. Rejected to people I loved dearly. Whether it has been an ex-boyfriend, a close friend, and even family members. To say it doesn't hurt, would be a lie. I am a pretty sensitive person. So when I have certain people in my life, because I'm not one for many friends, I hold you in a dear space in my heart. Ironically, even if you decide to mistreat me and reject me. I have had things assumed about me that were so far from the truth and made me seem as if my character would come into question. Due to my being rejected by so many over the years, I've given up on fighting to show my point of view. I have come to the realization that usually, once someone's mind is made up about you, it really won't change. They have to be willing to see the change themselves, or better yet just see the truth for what it is and not a skewered view. 

What makes it worse is when you are characterized as the villain in a story that you were actually innocent in. Phew, man do I have stories about this! I have been automatically labeled as a "bitch", "mean", "horrible person", "intimidating" (especially by men, smh). What's funny, when someone actually gets to know me, I usually get the following reaction: "Wow, you are a lot nicer than I thought you were." Sometimes, first impressions aren't always the correct impression, but generally, it is the lasting impression. 

I have decided instead of dealing with the rejection, to just step away. I realize that I can't please everyone and not a lot of people are meant to be around me in this season in my life. And that will just have to be okay. If there is something God wants to show someone about me that is in line with what He knows about me, then when the right time comes, they will come into my life. However, not everyone is meant to be in your life, at all. Others are just meant for a season. Very few, for a lifetime. That is just the reality of life. No matter how hard, I have to accept this for what it is.

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