The Struggle

I'm just going to put this as #thestruggle because I know what it is like to struggle regularly. I'm honest with myself and I'll be honest with you, I don't have it all together. And for people to believe I do are just plain crazy. I can disguise it, I could play it off, but I could be a walking hot mess at times, lol. I don't say it to belittle myself, I know I've come a far, long way. I'm just honest with myself. This week has reminded me of #thestruggle being so real! I mean, since Monday, everything that can go wrong has gone wrong! It is driving me insane. I'm trying to get my son enrolled in a private school and just trying to get his documents sent to the school has been the biggest nightmare and school starts in a week! Talk about my anxiety being 1000 right now! I do not like to do things last minute! Then I'm still getting his before and after school arrangements down pat, summer camp is costing an arm and a leg and I'm like can I please be done now?! I just don't have it this week! I'm scraping the pennies together people? Robbing Peter to pay Paul. The struggle is real! Single parenting is soooooo hard. And it is upsetting at times that people expect you to just have it all together, have all your finances in order, and just deal with it. Give me a break! I'm one parent taking care of a growing kid. Let's not talk about this current 4-6 month growth spurt (currently in one now-ugh!) And bills, my own classes starting two weeks ago, a temporary move, and training at my job and you guessed it-hot mess!! I'm so tired man but I have to push myself. I've work 6 days this week. My body has been killing me (possible bilateral ear infection, left knee swelling, and some inflammation in my right hip-the nurse in me).  I had my other job call me yesterday to come in and I was all for it until the day got going and my body was like, girlllllll bye! Please have several seats! It is no joke. I'll keep it real, I know I am doing a lot better than other people. My father always reminds me, we aren't doing that bad. And he is right! For all the stuff that a single mom or dad goes through, it could be worse. We could be homeless (which we have been before), we could have no car to get around and have to walk everywhere (been there and done that in New York and Florida), we could have absolutely nothing to eat (don't even get me started on that). Single life as a parent is hard! I really try to give my son the best of everything and give him the illusion that we are well off-please that doesn't work all the time. He is 8 now and too smart for his own good. I know he sees his Mom working and I get the regular questions: Mommy can you stay home today? Mommy, can you pick me up early? Mommy, why do you have to go to work so much? One day, he will get it. I got it with my Mom. I just had to be a parent myself before I got it. I just hope he doesn't struggle the way I did and learn the lessons I didn't. That is all a parent can pray and hope for, after all right?